KEKS!

Keks is a very dear friend, and another one that the HP fandom has given me. :)

She has a glow of her own, attracting the rest of us to her. She is a person that lives life to its fullest, be it for good or bad. She always speaks her mind. She is a fighter. She is VERY protective of her friends. She has a HUGE heart. She is a great friend. :)

Keks, I miss you girl!

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sad

I think everyone in my flist knows that I'm doing exams to be a medical resident next year. Most of the exams consist of a first theorical exam with multiple choice questions, and a second practical one, with a patient.

Today the list of who was going to do the practical exams to be a medical resident at UFRJ, the hospital to which I wanted to pass the most, was released.

About an hour ago, I talked to a friend over the phone that saw the list.

I didn't make it.

...

I know I still have a few exams to do, but the fact that I flunked at the ones I already did - only one or two left to release their results, and I was worse at them than at UFRJ - does not make things better. And also the fact that I wanted UFRJ so I could keep contact with the scientific part of medicine and someday maybe become a scientist who discovered the cure for AIDS - or some other of my stupid dreams - makes things even worse and I feel very very VERY sad.

And there are nagging thoughts at the back of my head telling me that I should have studied more, that I should have obsessed with HP and SW much less, and that I spent waaaay too much time involved in all things related to HP and SW, like assorted Jedi and HP meetings, Jedicons and Potter Rio.

The worst part? I'm not even *sure* if I wanted to be a be a doctor who dealt with infectious diseases! I'm not sure what specialty I want to follow in medicine...I just know I hate surgery. Heck, for the past year I've been having DOUBTS as wether or not I should become a doctor at all!

My head is going to explode before the end of the year with worry, regret, and all sort of bad feelings and thoughts, I just know it.

< /vent>

ETA: on a completely unrelated note, something that should have made me giddy but does not quite do it: Happy Birthday to BILL WEASLEY! :)